I know I said that I would keep my word
Wished that I could save you from the hurt
But things will never go back to how we were-

I'm sorry I can't be your world.

You know I love you, I really do
But I can't fight anymore for you
I don't know, maybe we'll be together again
some time,
in another life.

Hello Thursdays.

after a short break from the madness that is Thursday nights due to finals and such, we had a little hop-hop yesterday because most would have completed their exams by now. Ash, James, Danny & I started off with Monkey, headed to Ladida for a little visit only to be told that Misa Campo was in the houseeee (who????) to which, we never saw, started yawning, decided to leave, picked Pigu, headed to Seven for a little whoop whoop. from apple Ciders to Asahi, chambond lemonades to gin tonics, jaggerbombs & abc bombs. one helluva night topped off with McD's nuggets before calling it a night mmmn.

have I ever mentioned that I really like gin tonics? sipping that is, not sculling.

I woke up with a blocked nose today.

10 things I nvr understood.

10. Consolidation

9. People who lie/make up stories to others detriment

8. Why I waste money on a mani when I tend to do a lot of washing at work

7. The bitchiness/stupidity of my own gender

6. Diluted EPS wtf

5. People who get drunk and become agro wtf

4. People who always like to pick a fight with other people for stupid reasons ie. the sky is too blue, the weather is too hot, the other person is ugly wtf

3. Why I'm so manly yet I like the whole cosmetics/dressing-up thingamajig wtf

2. Cheap shots

1. You

DAY OFF TOMORROW TIME TO CATCH UP ON 4 DAYS WORTH OF SLEEP I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE GOOD BYE.

Jigjigjengjengjengjengxx

This is the last time
that I'm ever gonna give in tonight,

Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see.

Well I can see the pain in you,
and I can see the love in you,
but fighting all the demons will take time,

it will take time.

The angels they burn inside for us,
are we ever,
are we ever gonna learn to fly?

The devils burn inside of us,
are we ever gonna come back down, come around?

I'm always gonna worry about things that could break us.

567.

five, the most important thing to me about friendship is sincerity. i don't care about how much money you own, what status you have in society, what car you drive, i just need to know you have a good heart, because with good heart comes good intentions and it builds a solid base in a friendship. even if mistakes occur or something fucks up along the way because of lack of judgment, I know and would understand that it was never malicious and never meant to hurt.

six, i was mocked/laughed at the fact that i was being naive/stupid for having think of friendship in such a manner but dude, unlike you I don't run my mouth unnecessarily and the only reason why I think of it in such a way is because I have observed and experienced it long enough to know what's important for me in a friendship. but i remained silent because i don't have to explain something to someone who will never understand it.

seven, but I forgot to tell you that I believe in karma and that everything happens for a reason. while I may not be an extremely strong believer in either religion, I believe that there is God and perhaps this was his way of teaching you how to have some humility.

excited and extremely grateful for the opportunity hee :)

will elaborate more when I have a better idea of what's in store for me! but I foresee a really busy summer break - juggling between work, my family (their coming in less than 2 weeks for a month in Dec!), enjoying my holidays and learning something new.

041106.

Hard to believe that it was slightly over 3 years ago when we got together, and tho we've ceased contact over the years- its really good to see you happy with someone else - someone who could give you what I couldn't.

:)

Come with me, do you remember?

Realized I haven't blogged about PMS x zOMG! yet cos I was waiting for official pictures and what with exams and all so uhrm, kinda takes a little recollection since it happened a good 2 (or 3?) weeks ago.

But anyways! the week before the fashion show was a mad rush of fittings, catwalk strutting, running around whilst trying to fit some night-time studying. There were lotsa laughter and madness happening backstage, Joy & Li Fang were tasked to make-up a total of 15 models in limited time, there were clothes at every single corner of the VIP room, stacked up pizza boxes, half-naked (^_^ wtf) girls (and guys wtf), vain girls staring at themselves in the mirror again & again, lotsa hair spray wafting to the other, yells of "have you seen my beret/bowler hat/slippers/heels (insert more items here) wtf. But most of all, everyone had fun and it was really great working with Muff+Stit wtf ok I mean Sheryl & Michelle.

Anyways, pics!

(and ok I snorted on the cat walk when we were doing the first runway when it was supposed to be a sombre/emo walk cos the people I call friends started wolf-whistling/laughing/embarassing me/yelling AUNTY 13/GPS/EG (my friends are too creative with nick names -_-.. I swear I really tried to keep a straight face despite all the ruckus.. but miserably failed wtf)

rehearsals outfit #2

practise, practise, practise!

krazy models with Sheryl, Ash & Mich right before the show

outfit #1

backstage mayhem - too many shoes/clothe/pizzas wtf


showtime!

finale

Muff+Stit x zOMG!


Pics taken by Zillie, Ash, James, Iggy, Lisa, me wtf & some stolen off facebook from friends who came for the show. Thanks! :)

Most days for the past 3 weeks were spent sleeping at 7am, and struggling to wake up by 2pm, all in the name of exams (I know my sleeping time-table's fucked but I function better at night - I like to study when everyone's asleep plus the afternoon heat has been unbereaveber! wtf).

Food consists of sushi for lunch (if I wake up by 2pm, sushi shop downstairs sells out its nice sushi by 3pm) or coco crunch if I have no choice. Dinner's whatever is the easiest to cook - marinate chicken before end and stored to cook, lotsa steamed veges, tuna rice salad or in some cases - magee mee and would have continued to be if only I didn't ran out of it at home and didn't bother to stock up pfft.

I can't even explain the number of times I've been getting anxiety attacks this finals, I go thru the same process of knowing my stuff, then suddenly freaking out that I don't know enough, start talking a whole bunch of shit to people who would listen, start contemplating on giving up, go out to my balcony to calm my nerves, relax and suddenly realize that panicking will not help at this crucial time, and I come to realize that it's all pre-exam jitters.

So its all over now for this sem at least, I've decided to defer a paper because I really can't take the stress anymore and my brain's refusing input that all I see are white papers with green/purple/pink/yellow/black lines and nothing else.

Its time to re-adjust my bio clock, go out and have some good food, resume social contact and stop talking to the rabbit as means of releasing stress and create a social atmosphere wtf, go back to work and earn more money, do 2 whole baskets of laundry, hand-wash some sweaters, clean my room & my hurricane of notes in the living room,

and most of all.. RELAX AND BREATHE BECAUSE I AM DONE FOR THE SEMESTER HAAAA.

oh ya and perhaps attempting to blog more would be lovely wtf.

Happy Halloween!

Was studying the whole of Thursday night and was nestled comfortably wit my notes, but work beckoned on Friday night and the most irritating part was that it was Halloween, which required for some dress-up.

Was contemplating on not giving a shit because I was engrossed with my notes late Friday, but out of hunger (no food at home T_T) and the sudden realization that all I had was a vampire cape they provided and pretty much nothing else, I decided to venture out to hunt for a red dress.

ended up buying something else (epic fail as always), came home and decided to er, rely on superb make-up skills to look like shit (btw this is my first time dressing up for Halloween wtf).

This was when I realize all my useless fashion mags I bought over the years (or that's what my Dad calls them "waste of money" he says in utter disgust wtf) came to good use.

Did some random smoky eye shit with brown+black+maroon eye shadow to make myself look life I've never seen daylight/had no sleep for 100 years. Quite an easy feat considering I don't get much sleep these days anyways.

Then came the tricky part, I don't own a red lipstick so I decided to go for the pale look instead. Applied concealor and set with powder and topped it off with lotsa nude lipsticks, curled my hair a little and teased it to look like a sampah tong, hair-sprayed gaogao and ended up looking like this:

woooo~ wtf.

oh ya check out some other powerhouse costumes for the night:

the Pope was there too but..


little did we know.. ^^



wooo~ wtf

p/s: pics courtesy of Van & Pigu wtf